internalized transphobia / body image / disassociation / art / accountability
i want to start drawing self portraits to get past a bunch of internalized transphobia / body image stuff that’s been coming up for me lately. i’m not sure what i’d do with them. i want to post them here but i think it’s pretty likely that would be difficult for me. i wanted to at least express the idea out loud so it doesn’t get swallowed by the disassociation monster. i’ve never been able to draw a self portrait. i tried taking an art class once and when a self portrait was assigned for the final, i dropped the class. so it’s kind of a big hurdle for me to get past. but i’ve grown a lot since then, so i want to try again.
there is a car in the parking lot of this wendys and it has a rainbow dragon heart bumper sticker and i’m pretty sure it’s the car of the woman named jade who works here and told me i had the prettiest eyes when i was buying a frosty and is a total sweetie bc who else would be driving that car really
dreams, mild violence
i had this dream where the fellowship from the lord of the rings was the crew of a spacecraft and they were all genderqueer and there were all these relationships going on between them and they were on a mission to bring supplies to an isolated colony and this evil wizard was trying to stop them and they crash landed on an uninhabited planet and the wizard was about to kill them all but he underestimated the hobbits and they got in a classic hobbit backstab and defeated him and then i woke up.
it was a great show i can’t wait for season 2
when daft punk said “buy it use it break it fix it trash it change it mail-upgrade it, charge it point it zoom it press it snap it work it quick-erase it, write it cut it paste it save it load it check it quick-rewrite it, plug it play it burn it rip it drag it drop it zip-unzip it, lock it fill it call it find it view it code it jump-unlock it, surf it scroll it pause it click it cross it crack it switch-update it, name it read it tune it print it scan it send it fax-rename it, touch it bring it pay it watch it turn it leave it stop-format it” i felt that
🐈 child cat
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